I haven't forgotten about this blog I started. I just have been busy with work and life lately. Right now it's the busy season at my job. I don't know if I'm going to keep this job or not. My boss demands me to come in when I don't have a ride to work. I don't know how to get a ride because honestly, I can't afford a cab right now. He doesn't listen when I tell him that "I cannot do it!". Maybe he thinks I'll change my mind or something but I have over and over told him when he asks that I simply can't and then I list the reasons. I guess my reasons aren't good enough for him, I don't know. We are simply at an impasse and I feel this is forcing me to quit.
I wish I could look down the road a few years and see where this job I have now is going to lead. I wish I could see if changing jobs is truly the right decision. There is so much fear involved because at my job now, I have a comfort zone. I'm 3rd in seniority in my department. I know my job and responsibilities like the back of my hand.
What if I leave and find something better? What if I find first shift forklift driving? I'm an excellent driver even on a forklift. I can drive through the tightest of spots and I've only been driving it for 4 months.
I have to take a leap of faith. I'm going to leave. I can afford it. There are jobs out there that I'm qualified for. I don't HAVE to stay where I am. I'm really starting to hate 3rd shift anyway. Even right now, I'm sitting here wide awake at 3:30am. THAT'S NOT NORMAL!! Well, not for most people but it is for me.
Ok done venting. Thanks for reading this. Please keep coming back. I'll post more when things slow down.
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