Tomorrow is my birthday and another year older. This is the time when I truly reflect opposed to the new years when usually people do their reflections.
It's been a rough year to say the least. I can see though it all, I've matured a great deal. I can cope with quite a lot. I used to fold-up like a t-shirt when something would go wrong. Now, I feel I can more efficiently handle things.
I wouldn't feel this way if I wasn't saved. I'm a Christian. It happened over a year ago. I decided to give my life to God. I'm so glad I did. I was so filled with absolute anger and it wasn't over anything specific really. I just felt angry all the time toward people and things. I didn't know how to stop it. Well... I did. I knew the ONLY solution.... God.
I gave my life to Him...everything. I deleted anything that was a "parasite" to my relationship with God. I stopped being in chat rooms, I was looking at pornography and I stopped. I stopped everything. I got DOWN ON MY KNEES and said a simple forgive me prayer. I listed all the sins I could remember. I begged God for forgiveness. Begging isn't a requirement but I felt I needed to. I felt that .. wrong. I got up and started cleaning out my life. Everything that wasn't what God wanted for me.
My life changed. Of course things aren't perfect and they won't be as long as we are all here on Earth still. I can handle things better because I'm not alone. I know my Heavenly Dad is beside me. He won't leave me. He won't fail me. I can have expectations and He meets all of them. I can count on Him. I can lean on Him. I can read His word and I am filled with this joy nothing on Earth can measure up to.
I'm not saying I'm the perfect Christian. I'm the perfect sinner though. I was miserable and now I'm not. It's really that simple. I cuss, I judge. I tend to be selfish. I try not to be all those things but my Heavenly Father understands and forgives me. He is working on my weaknesses. He created me. He knows me. He loves me anyway.
If you find yourself in a bad spot and there doesn't seem to be a way out, I'm telling you THERE IS A WAY OUT. You are not alone. Those are lies from Satan himself. You have friends and people who care. You have a Heavenly Father who loves you. He wants you to come to Him.
Just say this simple prayer and yes, ON YOUR KNEES as best as you can DON'T BE LAZY.
God, I'm sorry for what I've done. I'm sorry for all my sins (this is where you can list them one by one).
You need to be completely honest with God. He knows anyway.
I believe You died on the Cross for me. I believe You rose on the third day. I believe You are alive today. Please wash my sins away and make me whole. Fill me with Your love.
Now, HALLELUJAH!! You're saved. Just like that. Boom that's it!! Now, the fun part. Find a church. I suggest Cedar Creek if You're from the Toledo, Ohio area. Some church that believes the WHOLE bible including the trinity and the Holy Spirit. All that is important. Trust me.
Read the bible as best as you can. God will help you. He will send His Holy Spirit down to teach you. God truly is amazing.
Most importantly, PRAY AND OFTEN talk to God like you would a friend. He's your comforter. You can lean on Him. He will help you. You just tell Him your problems. Not your wants necessarily but, what's bothering you.
I hope this has helped anyone. I appreciate you...all of you who read my blog. I payed for another year on this domain so, I'm not leaving!!
Take care and God bless,